Jordan had his final court appearance this morning. Absolute Discharge (no criminal record) – which is the only just result. Everyone involved knew he had no business being in the criminal system in the first place. So now he is ours again.

How do all those poor souls without loving families manage? He was immediately out the courthouse door and on the street with his prison sweats on his back. No jacket. No money. No ride. It is apparently up to him to go to the Police Station or Correctional Center to find his clothes and belongings. No meds either– and he does not have a current prescription for Lithium. His last dose of Olanzipine was Tuesday – and he refuses to take any until he sees Dr. A on the 23^rd. He says he only needs it “prn”.  I called the pharmacy and begged 4 days of Lithium from them until I can get in touch with Dr. A on Monday.

He’s jittery. Rapid speech. Up and down the stairs. In and out of the house. It’s exhausting. He smoked 4 cigarettes in the first hour – sigh. We need to buy an income property and put him in it asap. He’s by no means well – but hopefully some of it is just relief at being out and at home.  And while I predict we will have another episode within six months, I am willing to give him the benefit of the doubt and hope for the best.

My beautiful boy is in there somewhere – when the judge asked him if he had anything to say, he stood and said “I’d like to apologize to the court for my previous state of mind and my behaviour” and the judge told him that he had nothing to apologize for – he can’t help the fact that he has a mental illness. But he can take steps to stay well – by staying off weed and staying on meds. I asked him if his lawyer told him to apologize – no, he replied, I just felt I needed to.

My arm is much better. I can shower and dress myself (bit of a weird hair thing going on though as I try and style with my left hand).  I used a knife and sliced a cucumber without popping my bone out. I even signed my name to the document that signals the end of mortgage payments on the cabin (just in time to take on another mortgage for that income property)

My knee is still very sore. And tough to find the right position to sit comfortably. Walking is still a painful challenge so I will be making everyone come to me at work next week.  I will experiment with some long acting arthritis meds and see if that improves things.

I have given up waiting for the snow to disappear – my Weather Network app shows little snowflakes till next Thursday. To cope with this depressing news, Lucas and I have turned viewing all the spring ads on TV for bug spray and lawn fertilizer into a drinking game.