Hey Greg. According to the World Clock its 3:00 pm in Sydney. Sorry I missed your Skype call. I just got home from Wicked – it was absolutely amazing. I cried with joy three times. It is the first show where I left the theater wanting to go back and see it the next night. Wow. Worth every dime.

Jordan is brighter today and talking more – the effects of his binge are wearing off. He got up and out of the house to be at your parents by 1000.  

The appointment with BB went better than I expected. He was actually quite gentle and kind with Jordan and I could see that Jordan was emotional at a few points. BB offered to see him again. Told him about a supported recovery living situation in North Battleford. Offered him a part time job on a ranch working with horses (Jordan declined). Asked him if he knew how to drywall (no). I think Jordan is too scared to conduct an actual job hunt and doesn’t want a job he is not familiar with. He wants the comfort of the concrete crew but acknowledges he can’t physically do it. BB said just start something – you can always quit.

 BB reviewed all the AA meetings and highlighted some that had lots of young people. He told Jordan all he had to do was go and sit. No expectations to participate.

BB raised the grim statistics again – 80% will fail and die. He commented that he felt you looked shocked by that statement last week. I said I could not comment on how you may have felt, but I did share with Jordan that Sunday night you expressed your fear that we were going to lose him, that he would die and there was nothing we could do about it. Jordan got very teary.

 Jordan told BB he struggled at Edgewood because he really could not connect. That he had no idea what to say to people, nor did he have any feelings. Dr. A says that is true, when you are depressed you really don’t have any feelings or emotions.

 I told Jordan over and over that we were not kidding. That he could not live here if he did not put a recovery process in place. I asked him if he was in denial, or being an asshole and he said he truly had no idea what we expected him to do. I said I would not dictate to him. He had to choose. That it could be seeing BB again, seeing someone else, going to meetings, calling an alumni. But that by tommorow night he had to have made some decisions.

 We had our usual 15 minute session with Dr. A and M where they were all absolutely delighted with his improvement. He did confess the relapse and the fact that he was only taking 1mg of Respiridon but no one seemed too concerned. What a waste of time.

Lucas’s passport arrived today 🙂 we will get the visa tommorow.

 It is 1116 PM and I am still wired from the show. Niko is crying most pathetically. I may have to cave in and let him sleep on the bed. Hope things are going well.